I’ve had the urge to talk about this for a while now, but instead I fell prey to the very thing that has bothered me for so long.

In America we have many different groups who like to stand out and show pride in who they are. All the groups that I am about to list are encouraged to stand out and to be proud of who they are and there is not a single group on this list that you could not find a scholarship for.

  • Gays and Lesbians
  • Transgenders
  • African Americans
  • Asians
  • Mexicans
  • Native Americans

Now that is just a very short list of many, many different groups who receive special treatment from the government. If anyone from that list were to stand out and say, “I am proud of who I am,” or more specifically, “I am proud to be black,” or, “I am proud to be a transgendered African American lesbian who was raised by my gay Native American and Asian fathers and was born in Mexico.” Now I know that that is sort of extreme but the fact remains that being proud of who you are is fully encouraged nowadays, unless you’re white.

The other day I was with a group of friends and we were talking about different things and ethnicity came into the discussion and I happened to state that I was proud to be white. As soon as I said that someone blurted out, “That’s racist.”  That response made me furious. Not at the person, but at the mentality behind it. Why is everyone else aloud to be proud of who there are except for the white man? It’s like when a white person says they’re proud to be white all the other side hears is, “Power to the white man. Kill all the niggers.” And sure, there are white men like that, but there are also racist black men. To say that white people have the same racist thoughts is not only totally incorrect, but extremely offensive as well.

I believe that all men (and women) are created equally. I believe that every man, woman and child should have equal rights. Whether you’re gay, black, Mexican or white; equal rights for everyone means everyone. It’s not fair that the white man is ostracized, and for what? Slavery? Give me a break. Yes, I agree slavery was wrong, but I will not apologize for it. I won’t be sorry for something I did not do.

In Genesis 1:27 is says that God created man and woman in His own image. It doesn’t say He created the white man in His image. It doesn’t say He created the black man in His image. It says man. All men are created equally in God’s own image. When Jesus was asked what the most important commandment of all was He said to love God with all that you are. And the second was to love your neighbor as yourself. We need to put aside everything and start living our lives with an outward sign of love and compassion for others. It’s truly amazing how much hatred people show towards each other, especially over racial matters.

Anyway people, go in love and peace. Thanks for reading.

The Elder Scrolls Online

This weekend will consist of me glued to my computer. Thanks to my good friend Vince I am able to beta test The Elder Scrolls Online. It starts tomorrow morning at 9:00 and unfortunately due to my work schedule I won’t be able to start playing until about 9:00 pm. Ever since I heard that they were making this game, I’ve wanted to play it. And now I can. So this weekend, if I don’t answer any phone calls or texts it’s probably because I’m playing ESO. I’ll probably get on here and update you on how the game play is, but I can’t say too much because I did sign a full disclosure waver. Anyway, thought I’d tell you what my weekend was going to consist of. What are your weekend plans? Let me know in the comment feed what you have going on. Have a great weekend!

Snow Days in Oregon

When Oregon decides to snow, and it doesn’t matter how much snow there is, people become morons on the road. It started snowing this morning at about 8:30 and it hasn’t stopped since. There’s only about about an inch or so on the ground, but that doesn’t stop people from acting like idiots. Granted, most people in Oregon never drive in the snow, but come on people– IT’S AN INCH OF SNOW.

Before I lived in Montana I had never driven in the snow at all and when the snow first came I had to learn to drive in it. And the weather conditions were a lot different when I learned. When I first drove in the snow is was in negative degree weather, fifty to seventy mile an hour winds with about six inches of snow on the ground. Now that was crazy. In all reality it’s not hard to drive in the snow, you just have to know what you’re doing.

Anyway, enjoy the snow everyone and stay safe out there! Let me know what you’re doing with your snow day/s in the comment feed and be sure to go to the home page and hit that follow button! Thanks everyone and have fun in the snow.

Social Media

This whole social media thing is hard. You gotta keep all your accounts updated or they will eventually just die off. And there’s a lot of sites too. Like for me, there’s Google+, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, and my blog here. That enough for me!

Have a great day everyone and let me know in the comment feed which social media sites you use!

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

So lately I’ve been really torn on what direction I want my life to go. 

Currently I am living in Portland living with my sister and watching her kids when she has to work. And honestly I don’t mind it. I have just about everything I need here and the pay isn’t too bad either. The only thing I don’t have is a car, but that’ll be proved for me here in the not too distant future. Everything is great, but I just don’t know if I want to continue doing this. Being all the way up in Portland is hard because my life still heavily revolves around Newberg. All of my friends live in or around Newberg, my church is in Newberg and my home Lodge is in Newberg. I have all these things that I do in Newberg, but haven’t been able to do since I moved to Portland, and I’m just not sure what I should do.

I just feel like my life isn’t going anywhere at the moment and I hate the feeling. As of right now I don’t have any college certificates or degrees, which I want, but also don’t have the money to do it. My ultimate goal is to become a police officer. But to be competitive in this field you really need a four year degree in social science or criminal justice. I don’t know, maybe I’m overreacting, but I want to go somewhere in life.

So I don’t know if moving back to Newberg is a good or bad decision, but it looks like I have some things to think about.


I’ve been doing a lot of self evaluation lately and to be honest I am not proud of my conclusion of myself. I’ve never thought of myself as a bad human being in any way, in fact, I’ve always thought of myself as a good upstanding citizen of this fine country we call The United States of America. But in reality, who the hell am I. What have I done to contribute to society? And after a long self evaluation I’ve determined that I am nobody. Now I’m not saying that I will never be a somebody, but as of now there is nothing that I can say, “Hey! That was me. I did that.” There is nothing that I am proud of and I’ve determined that it’s a result of my being lazy.

When I lived in Montana I moved in with a couple who were kind of a cranky bunch, but all in all they were nice people. After a few months of living there we decided to move into a bigger place and throughout that move I didn’t really put much effort into the move, mainly because I didn’t have very many belongings, but in reality I could have helped out a lot more. One day my brother approached me and informed me that they were talking behind my back and saying that I was lazy. And that really offended me. I did not in the slightest bit think that I was lazy at all. I mean I worked, I took care of my dog Marshall when I was home and I always asked them if it was okay if they could watch Marshall when I went out and they always said it was fine. Now I don’t know if they agreed to it because they were really fine with it or because they didn’t want to say no, but I’ve come to realization that they were right. I really am lazy.

Obviously you can tell that physically I am lazy. I mean, I’m fat. And I hate that I’m this way, but I let myself get to where I’m at and I have to live with it. I know losing weight is no easy task and it takes a lot of hard work and dedication, but if I wanted to, I could lose weight. I could shred off the pounds and get healthier but when it comes down to it, I’m just too damn lazy. I don’t have that drive or motivation to get off my fat ass and go walk for an hour or two. And for some reason I would rather eat food that is terrible for me than eat good nutritious food that is actually more satisfying than the crap I eat.

The second and less obvious laziness in my life is my spiritual life. It’s bad. I parade around claiming that I’m a Christian, but when it comes down to it, I’m just as bad or even worse than those hypocritical assholes I hate so much. I lead such a double life it’s not even funny. I say that I love Jesus, but when you look at the actions of my life you have to ask yourself, Is he really? The fact that I sin doesn’t make me a bad Christian, everyone sins, but the fact that I choose to do it and don’t think anything of it, is wrong and I know it. I can’t even remember the last time I opened my bible and read it and it’s probably been even longer than that since I’ve prayed. How can I say that I love God, yet continuously choose to neglect Him?

The third major laziness in my life is my laziness to sit down at my computer to write. I like to say that I’m a writer, but really, am I? I have nothing to show for it. I mean yeah, I have some poetry that I wrote like five years ago, but other than that I have maybe a few ideas of stories and nothing yet on paper.

What I’m trying to get at is that even though I’m lazy, it doesn’t mean that I don’t care. Yes I’m fat, yes I’m not a “good” Christian and yes I don’t write enough; but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to be fit and healthy, or grow closer to God or start writing again. I just can’t seem to find it in me to do so. I don’t have that fire anymore. But I guess if you want a fire started, build one. I have to do it myself. If I want to cross that finish line, or grow spiritually or write that book; then I have to do it. I’m sick of my lazy way of living and I won’t have it anymore.

I want to have a lifestyle where I can do anything I want. I love hiking and biking and kayaking and would love to have the body to do that. I love Jesus with all my heart and want to have that strong relationship with Him that I once had. Writing is probably my favorite thing to do and my ultimate goal is to write a book and have it professionally published. And I know I can do all of these things, I just have to do them. It’s really as simple as that.

So as I start my life, and I mean really start my life, I want to challenge anyone who reads this. I challenge you to take that step as well. You may not have the same troubles I do, but I know that nobody is perfect. Really take a look at yourself and try to find those things that you know needs improvement and work on them. Don’t let laziness rule your life any second longer. And if you do take a look at yourself and you can’t find anything wrong, then help someone else. Be a mentor for someone who needs it.

Anyway, thanks for reading and be sure to leave a comment and/or follow my blog for updates.

Hello World

Just thought I’d get on and say hello to everyone! I’m going to try my best to get on every day and write, maybe even a couple times a day. I read that in order to improve one’s writing, one must write. Now, even though I blogged a few years back and it was somewhat successful, I am still learning and for a while I’m just going to be talking about nonsense and my daily life. Eventually I’ll upload posts with my various writings, and as always, feedback is very much appreciated.

But for now, I’ll just update you guys about how my life is going, which it’s going quite while I might add. I got up this morning, got the kids ready and fed and sent them off to school. And I was actually surprised they had school today. A lot of the school districts here in Portland didn’t have school today, but the kids’ did.Thank God. All I have to do now is watch my niece, who is a four year old spawn of Satan (I mean a perfect little angel). It’s too cold to play outside and all she likes to do is watch Doc McStuffins or Sofia the First, and I actually don’t mind the latter.

Have a great day everyone and feel free to comment on posts or follow my blog. I know I’m just starting out and there’s not much here, but hey, Rome wasn’t built in a day now was it?